That was the subject line of the lengthy text message I got this morning from a friend. He was informed this morning that his partner's nephew had committed suicide...he was in the disbelief stage and I could tell by what he wrote that the hamster wheel had started spinning.
He said he reached out to me cause he was feeling slightly lost...He knew about Ian and knew I'd understand...and I have to tell you, as shitty as this is, I'm really glad he has me to come to...cause I know what it was like to have no one understand...it was lonely and isolating and I felt an overwhelming sense of abandonment...from everyone.
So today has been... hazy...
It's bad enough that it's happened to you.. one of those things most never fathom would happen to them...but then to find out that it's happened to a friend of yours not long after you have just experienced it yourself is a total mindfuck.
My poorly constructed sutures were weakened by this news...mourning Ian and feeling helpless for my friend...who so very unfortunately, like me, won't quite be the same now.
This is one of those times I feel useless. I wish I knew what to say.
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